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#😱प्रसिद्ध अभिनेत्रीच्या घरी आढळला मृतदेह➡️
😱प्रसिद्ध अभिनेत्रीच्या घरी आढळला मृतदेह➡️ - My silence was mistaken for weakness : Krishi Thapanda @krishithapanda CONTINUED FROM < 1 ' PEOPLE JUDGED ME BASED ON ONE INCIDENT ' It felt like I was public property . Anyone would come , say anything , and go , Krishi says , adding , Nobody asked where it started from . Nobody cross - checked facts . One inci- dent defined my entire life . People forgot who I was for 35 years . She says , I stayed quiet and my silence was taken as weakness . ' AT ONE POINT , I DID NOT HAVE ANYONE AROUND ME ' At one point , she withdrew com- pletely I fought alone . I figured it out alone . I didn't have anyone around me , she admits . The iso- lation turned into something more dangerous . I was suicidal I didn't know how I was still here . She pauses , then adds , My brain D kept telling me , ' You can live , you have dreams . But my body was not supporting me . It felt like my brain and body were not in sync anymore . ' I WANTED TO GIVE UP ON LIFE ... BUT I COULDN'T ' The noise got so loud that Krishi says she had lost all hope . I wanted to give up , but I couldn't , she says , and adds , So , I had to choose either die or take help . She decided on reaching out to professionals for help . I was told therapy is not enough , and needed psychiatric help , too . I am still taking both . Every week . She has since been public about her battle with mental health . There is no need to be embarrassed . When you are clinically depressed , you need professional help , she tells us . ' AT SOME POINT , EVEN THE WORD ' STRONG ' STARTED IRRITATING ME ' Krishi says everyone told her to stay strong during those trying times . At some point , the word ' strong ' started irritating me , she says , and adds , If I come to you , I don't want to be strong . I want to be weak . I want comfort . ' EVEN TODAY , I AM SCARED TO SMILE ' It's been months , but recovery is fragile . Even today , I am scared Krishi Thapanda ' Now , I just want to live ; not explain ' Krishi is certain she no longer wants to justify her life . I am not saying support me or talk good about me . Just don't talk . Let it go . Let people live their life , she says , and adds , My healing has just taken to smile , she admits . I feel like if I look happy , it will trigger something 10 steps . I have a long way to go , but I will keep working on myself . I'm broken , but I'm learning how to live again . again . You take two steps forward ... and some- thing pulls you back again , she says . ' THE REEL THAT BLEW UP ON MY FEED WAS MY FIRST RAY OF HOPE ' Showing her raw and unfiltered life on social media where she broke down while going about her life - was not meant to go viral . It was just her way of journaling her life , one step towards healing , she stresses . Until that day , I had only seen hatred . But after that reel , thousands reached out . She recalls the messages that stayed with her . Wom- I have no movies lined up , social media is my bread and butter . I try to be as real as I can there , for the community who supported me throughout en told me , ' From today , you are not alone . We are with you . ' That was my first ray of hope . ' SOCIAL MEDIA BROKE ME , BUT IT HELPED ME STAND AGAIN , TOO ' Krishi now has a lot of clarity about the duality of the space she now depends on . Social media can be bad , but it . can also get you back on your feet . Today , it is also her live- lihood . I have to show up . This is my bread and butter . Bills will not wait for me to get better . Creating content , she says , gave her structure - and purpose . It kept me go- ing . It gave me work . It made me independent again . - ShareChat